Spring Break and days so far!

This post comes after a long time. I have had a pretty hectic 2 months or so. There have been innumerable transitions. Some which I could embrace when they happened, some I might realise a few years down the line. I think this break(though only litreally!) will allow me to just relax a bit, reflect, contemplate and plan for the things to come ahead. One thing is for sure though; I have never felt like I deserved a break more than I do now in the past 4 years. This weekend was fun. We caught up on some Hindi movies. Though all of them turned out to be silly, I really relished the time that I spent with friends at home. We cooked elaborate meals, and spent hours; supplementing our meals with prolonged discussions.I shall try and update my invisible and (I hope not) imaginary readers.

February:
February was a month of vulnerability for me. There were times when everyone seemed right and then there were some when I felt the opposite. The first half was spent in finalising my courses. Like any other fresh incoming student, I had to fight many insecurities, overcome fears. Fear of being ridiculed, fear of uncceptability. I think I handled it pretty well. Mid-feb was more like a warm up zone. Since, I had my stuff sorted out, I just had to work. Being the begining of the sem and my added exuberence, I often felt that I wasn't putting in enough efforts as I was on the go, almost always.Valentine's day was a respite for me; as we went out for a night. Though nothing extravagant was done, but I enjoyed thoroughly.

March:
March was a month of extremities. I had multiple commitments. Being a new student here, I wanted to make sure that I wasn't recieved as a snob, for that I am not. So, I decided to take part in a duet dancing event for 'Indianite', which was scheduled for 10th March. It took quite some convincing and some gruelling wee hours of practice. My body cranked and rumbled, as I tried to move in sync for the most part of early March. I haven't danced in 6 years. To add to that, side-view now is more like my front view not to long ago. Nonetheless, we pulled off a decent performance,more of which has to be attributed to my dancing partner Aarti who inspite of being loaded with twice as much course work I am with, and also being a part of two other dances, gave a good performance. Paradise ended with advent of Sunday. For me, most part of Sunday was spent reminiscing and logginh on to Orkut. I din't want to let any 'congrats' unthanked. Sometimes these events get the kid out in you. Come Monday, and it was back to school, for I had a daunting Midterm staring at me on Tuesday. It went pretty well. It was followed by a midterm in the subject of Logistics. For the first time in my life I worked a straight 16 hrs, and I am proud of it.I never thought I could push myself so hard.

So there it is, my life through Feb and March, in a nutshell. Its really difficult to transcend the emotions attached with many of the actions that I narrated. It may seem a little bland, for many of aquaintances believe that life in the US revolves around visiting strip bars, getting drunk every weekend and getting lucky with local chicks. I don't blame them, I have had my days when I believed so myslef. I guess there is more to life here than that. Fine, u miss home, miss parents; I have had tears in my eyes at times when I had no one to sak me for food or cared to know how I was doing, in person. I can see myself to having grown from that situation, more independent, responsible and more aware of my own actions. Not that I wouldn't like to be pampered by my people when I return, but I guess they will recieve a lot more appreciation this time around, for I understand and value the efforts that go in to make someone feel like how I was made to feel, back home.

As for the Spring break, I plan to visit my cousin at New Jersey and I am sure its gonna be fun. Family,Worldcup, laughter, fun, good food and I hope some good liquor await me.
Cheers!